I keep getting the urge to cut again...?

it seems that you are surrounded by negative energy. i think the best thing to do is to pray and build your relationship with god. he can transfer that negative energy to positive energy, and in this process you will build a better relationship with yourself. negative energy draws negative things to happen, and positive energy causes good things to happen. your probably 16 or so and are going through some tough times in your life; a time when you feel like no one is on your side. god is always on your side, even if your not perfect. when i was your age i didn't really believe in god and had a lot of questions about him; but sooner or later you will realize that he can help you to be a stronger individual.